For whatever reason, I'm not sleeping again. I went to bed at 11, woke up in the 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 o'clock hours before throwing in the towel and getting out of bed.
I also had my first dose of anti-depressant today.
So I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. I have an anti-anxiety med if needed, but I'm holding off because I'm already tired from lack of sleep and I don't want to throw anything else in there.
I don't drink caffeine. I'm already prone to insomnia. These meds can make me tired and restless. I'm trying not to think about that right now. I'm trying to focus on the big picture. On how I might start to enjoy things again. On how my mood won't be as unpredictable.
One of the things that's been hard is the lack of emotion. I don't really feel anything. But at the same time, I know that things can be better. So today, I'm believing that things will be better.
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